#I wished i've died;

30 April 2009

HAIS.

Nothing's changing at all.

i think it's better for you to go with her.
your everything's her , her and her.
so what if she's a malaysian .
i heard loads of thing about HER & others.
you don't know me , .
i just want you to be happy .
it just seems that you're not happy with me.
so yup,
i think it's better for you to go with her.
sooner or later bah.
though i dont want you to go,
but. it's the best.
i don't want to pull it any longer.
your happiness is my smile.

Labels: I'm not your love.

Murdered on 6:42 PM

29 April 2009

Die le.
My blog's going dead . -.-

Murdered on 10:57 PM

28 April 2009

No one understand how i'm feeling right now.

I'm just feeling like this song right now i'm listening to.
Bleeding love.
closed off from love i didn't need the pain
once or twice was enough
and it was all in vain
time starts to pass before you know it your frozen
ooh
but something happened for the very first time with you
my heart melted to the ground, found something true
and everyones looking round thinking i'm going crazy
ooh
but i dont care what they say, i'm in love with you,
they tried to pull me away,but they dont know the truth,
my hearts crippled by the vein that i keep on closing
you cut me up and ikeep bleeding,
i keep keep bleeding love, i keep bleeding,
i keep keep bleeding love,keep bleeding,
keep bleeding love,you cut me up
ooh
trying hard not to hear but they talk so loud
they pissing sounds fill my ears try to fill me with doubt
let them know that the goal is to keep me from falling
ooh
nothings greater than the rest that comes with your embrace
in this world alone the loneliness i see your face
your everywhere around me everyone thinks i'm going crazy
but i dont care what they say im in love with you
they tried to pull me awaybut they dont know the truth
my hearts crippled by the vein that i keep on closing
you cut me up and i keep bleeding,
i keep keep bleeding love, i keep bleeding, i keep keep bleeding love,
keep bleeding, keep keep bleeding love,you cut me up
and its draining out of meoh they find it hard to believe
i'll be wearing these scars for everyone to see
i dont care what they sayi'm in love with you
they try to pull me away
but they don't know the truth
my hearts crippled by the vein that i keep on closing
ooh
you cut me up and i keep bleeing and i keep keep bleeding love,
keep bleeding, keep keep bleeding love, keep bleeding, keep keep bleeding love
oh you cut me open and i keep bleeding, keep keep bleeding love, keep bleeding,
keep keep bleeding love
oh you cut me open and i keep bleeding keep keep bleeding love.

Murdered on 6:57 AM

26 April 2009

26 Apr . 516pm

Everything is going HayWire .
I don't know what to do now .
I dont know what Should i do .
I Just Can't stop crying .
Everything's starting to crash .
I don't have enough time to get in piece .

♥ I wan a piece for a peace please .
Someone help me .
Infinite Tears Always Hurts.

Murdered on 2:10 AM

24 April 2009

Comp's back.

the weather's getting hotter !
my comp's back .
my lai ang finally came .
lol ~
now i don't know if i should play back audi .
damn it ):

baby. ♥

Murdered on 5:11 PM

15 April 2009

Angry ,

Today !
Went to sch as usual .
then same same thing .
bla bla bla ; project heart.
then we went to Bedok Reservoir Park
to play high elements structure !
when we reached there, it rained .
I'M SOO HAPPY .
then we went to TP to get mini games .
we're at the field sitting area.
then can hear their orientation.
DAMN FUN MANxz.
i didn't feel good there,
felt like vomiting.
Well , who cares ! :D

Then after that the rain stopped.
we went back to the Forest Adventure .
and packed our stuffs aside.
And started.
I don't know how to discribe.
It's fucking scary .
My leg's are shivering non-stop.
I kept thinking if i die ,
will i get to see baby last chance.
haha. stupid me D:

Now i'm...
..
..
..
how to say ?
..?
..?
..?
Headache ;
Angry ;
Jealous &
Fucked up ? :D

Jason told me somethings about baby's past.
Felt disappointed .
I hope wad jason say, will not be true with me.
Went to look at baby's friend's links.
Well, I don't know what to say.
Nothing to say tho .
Just Angry lar .
Fuck man.
baby's starting to get cold to me.
i'm afraid.. help.

I miss baby. ♥

Murdered on 3:22 AM

14 April 2009

14 April ;

I Just love my baby so much .

Today in sch.
Got project heart .
then had physics test at project heart room for around 20 mins .
after that , Mr Foo did with us .
- Anger Management -
Talk about anger ,
and controlling anger lorh.
after that got recess .

During recess .
John lim came to my table .
then sit beside mi .
then start to talk about why i so skinny .
after that Vanessa ask John lim
2012 is the end of the world right?
then John lim say no lah , no such thing as end of the world.
LOLS .
then i told him .
If 2012 end of the world i 2011 go rob the bank .
then he say don't rob the bank.
i bring you go around the world and enjoy life .
then chit - chat .
then Vanessa suddenly tell John lim
Shirley's bag got something something ar.
then John lim , SUSPICIOUS ! LOL .
but he never check lah .
den Vanessa go tell him condom -.-
John lim say i stand by already. =_="
then keep talking about condoms . WTH !!
and then link to cinemas [ i forget how link there de ]
then Prabu start saying Vivo City Cinema
got those double seater seats for couple
and bed at the back.
John lim say ya lor. for couple to make love wan wad.
right Shirley ? for you and me . [ YOU GO DIE CAN ?! ]
then me and van laugh .
John lim our DM still so tiko pek .
Open-Generation . LOL.
then smoked and go back to project heart room liao.

Keith and Raymond already there.
me and Van was last to go in . [ late ]
but lucky they haven't start.
then we played a game called 'ZOOM'
about picture den zoom out zoom out zoom out [ dunno how explain ]
play until very complicated but bo pian. too pro le.
first batch to finish it in one try ! HAHAHA .
then talk about E(motions)
The more move you make , the more emotion you have.

Very tired today ar.
Keep doing exercise .
Tomorrow still got the Forest Adventure .
Scarly kena sunburn tomorrow i sure sue they all :l

I miss baby so much lor :(
Dunno if later baby want meet me anot T.T

x3 Baby ♥

Murdered on 12:11 AM

13 April 2009

I want to cry.

I'm starting to break down once again .
Hais .
Why ? I don't know why . :S

Today , in sch .
At hall after recess ,
Diniy said Adli asked her for break .
I sit down at the hall was like
' what the fuck ? what the fuck ? what the fuck ? what the fuck ? '
then i wanted to sit beside diniy ,
when i stand up , i trip until myself and fall down .
luckily Yan Shuo beside me , i didn't hurt my butt .
But i hurt my knee .
It hurts.
Then Diniy , Vanessa , Yan Shuo , Syah , Arifa and Fadilah laugh at me -.-
Toots . hate you all .

I'm gonna burst out in tears anytime can ?
Relationship are so complicated .
Fuck the love .

Murdered on 12:11 AM

12 April 2009

New Blog Skin

Hihi .
Here to post .
Like my new blog skin ? :D
Nice right ?
HAHAHA .

x3 Baby ♥

My Baby's So Sweet can ?! :D

Murdered on 7:47 AM

06 April 2009

ANGRY >:(

Angry ar.
Tell bibi i wan watch the Shinjuku Incident
den he go watch without me liao.
Angry ar.
Hmpfh.

Murdered on 7:00 AM

03 April 2009

2 April 2009 ; 00:14am ; Start of something New

2 April 2009 ; 00:14am

SOMETHING NEW. LALALA.
BABY I LOVE YOU ~

<3